Discovery.

We all have to think in order to learn. We all have to want to know. We have to have our own opinions. They were meant to be respected. People just don't understand that these days.
If you want to be heard, you have to listen.
I sometimes don't want to hear it. Considering something that you don't think you believe can be difficult, but in this world, you have to be willing to listen.
Perspective is necessary. It's beautiful.

I have begun to realize the importance that other people play in my life.
I have always known how big of a role music plays in my life. I know I talk about The Killers all the time, so I am going to mention a few other artists,.

Angels and Airwaves.

Weezer.

Ingrid Michaelson.

Coldplay.

Adele.

Yellowcard.

Music connects. It makes you think.

I love people who have a passion for what they do. I learn more from teaches that love what they teach.
People that want to change the world.
Find something you love. Find someone you love.
Be so passionate and persistent that it inspires people. Or if you have to, annoy them. If that is what it takes for someone to see you in your real light, DO IT. I talk all the time about how blessed I am; but I have trials too. The reason that I am so blessed is because I am able to face them.
Sure I have problems.
Sure I want simpathy.

I need to listen to people, because every day I need people to listen to me.

can you hear what they are saying to you? do you know what they mean?
that is so generic. "I know what you mean". Do you really?

Think about it. A lot of times, they don't need your advice. People just need someone to talk to. to get it out.
I have always felt like if I don't talk about it, everything will build up in my head until there is no more room. I still feel that way. That is why I write about it. Here, in my journal, on my "math notes". It doesn't matter where I am, I have to write or talk about how I feel. I have to talk about decisions.
I have to talk about everything.
somebody has to listen.
be that listener.

amazing really.

What something someone says can make you feel.
You get told you look tired, you become tired.
Someone says that you suck, and you start to fail.
People say that you are a brat, you become one.
Someone tells you that you are beautiful, you feel it.
You feel it all.
Be careful what you say to people.
I know that I feel it, and know that you would feel it.

Compliment people and mean it.
I really think that I could not feel much better than I do right now. I feel like I actually have worth that hasn't been there for a long time..
I really think that I become what people say to me.
I love my friends, for always focusing on the good in me. I know I need improvement, but you are helping to provide me with the best way to receive it. You are giving it to me, for real.

There are things that I have thought that I would never have that I have now.
people I can talk to.
people that will listen.
people that accept me.

and I have always had people that love me, but now I see it.
Sometimes it takes a long time to figure that out, but it is amazing when you find it,.
look for it.

but also, believe in yourself.

Lazy

I am becoming so lazy.
I am tired all the time.
I don't accomplish anything, I just sit and stare at it.
I know that things are important, I just don't do anything.
It is rediculous.
It is overrated.

I feel tired.
I'm lazy.
I want to sleep.
Gosh jessica, do your math homework.

my other hero's

We talked about our hero at young women's. I talked about my bazillion heroes. I didn't say this guy, and I regret it.
I love him. You all know that.
I think that we all need someone who can stand up for what they believe in.
For their religion, for their music, for their family.
I honestly post so much about this guy on everything I own, but really. He deserves to be recognized.

He has a fire burning for the church, and I have a fire burning for him.

Another person that I failed to mention was Moses. I know you guys don't expect me to go all churchy, but I love my church. I love Moses, and so I am going to post a few clips to represent him. All from my favorite animated movie, "The Prince of Egypt"

I want a man like this, because Moses stands up for what he believes: from the moment he defends the slaves to the moment he frees them, not to mention before that, and beyond that. And this song makes me so happy, and it helps me not not hate love.

I have other heroes that probably don't even realize that they are my heroes. Some may never know. But I know, and God knows, and sometimes, that is all that matters.

I suck at life.

I know what I want to do. I just don't want to do it. Make sense of that... haha.

Why is it that everyone thinks that they have to be in love with someone all the time.
Why is it that everyone thinks that I have to be in love with someone.
Stop it. I don't like anyone. Is that a crime.

I love respect. I love friends. I love conversations. I love to vent.
Sometimes, I even love crying.

bleckk. I just feel like crap. solos next period.
That could be interesting.
Work tonight,
at least my last day is coming up.
Sterling Scholar interview tomorrow.
That is what I am most nervous about.

oh,

I want a Jedi

I wrote this essay for AP language, and being the nerd that I am, I quite like it.

    We live under the constant shadow of perfection. These non-existent life forms that forever haunt us with their complete understanding of life and it’s purpose. These beings that know how to protect themselves and others effectively. Having two brothers at home, I realise the true importance of these creatures, and it will haunt me until I die. I always thought that I wanted to be one of them, but I have come to the conclusion that I just want one of them. I want a Jedi.
    If I had a Jedi of my own, there are certain things that I just wouldn’t have to put up with. Crowded hallways would never be a problem again. Just bring my Jedi friend along and those people are being forced out of my way in a heartbeat. A family member comes into my room to wake me up, and my Jedi friend is there to mind-control them into thinking it is three o’clock in the morning. Can’t decide where to go to lunch? My Jedi is there to tell me how much I love Del Taco (even if I don’t). Someone upsetting me, no problem. Eat my Jedi’s light-saber.
    I would love to be able to get all my homework done without getting distracted. With a Jedi, they could just mind control me into finishing it. I am not the tallest person in the world, and a lot of times, I can’t reach something that I want. All they would have to do is use the force, and it’s in my hands. The traffic on the way to school is getting seriously ridiculous, but this wouldn’t be a problem for me, because my Jedi would know how to make and operate a spaceship or hovercraft that could get me there in no time.
    What about their sense of the future? No more worries about where I should go to school, how I am going to pay for it, if I will ever get married. They just know, and they will tell me what is best. I would become something that I want to be sometimes, intimidating. Only I will be intimidating, and still be awesome. He could help me find answers to my questions, or challenge me when needed. My Jedi would make me a better person.
    Sometimes, I just want to do something out of the ordinary. An adventure, a journey. That is no big deal for my Jedi, because he is familiar with many galaxies. On those days when I am just tired of Human life, my Jedi could introduce me to his fellow Jedi’s, or other alien friends. I would never be bored. They even have droid friends, the kind that could do anything technical for me, and I would never have to deal with that.
    You can do just about anything with the back-up of a Jedi. Think about the inventions that they have; devices for breathing under water, grappling hooks, light-sabers and bullets and bombs that seek things. Plus they are simply genius. They always have a way to make something impossible work. Who coulld have a better personal trainer?
    One day, I may find something that I like more, but for now, I just really want a Jedi.

Latest concert. life. emotion.

Thursday, I attended the Yellowcard concert. Wow. I have always loved them, but this really made me love them even more. I just felt this unwavering connection to that band and all their music. I also felt very connected to my best friend. Because I love her, and that band is like our friendship all wrapped into one thing. It is very hard to explain.
I am thankful for them.
I am thankful for new-found friendships, and old strong ones.
I am thankful for those who are thankful for me.
I am lucky to be able to communicate about everything with my friends.
As far as I know, there is nothing about me that my best friend doesn't know, and if there is, I would tell her in a heart-beat.
There are people that I thought wanted nothing to do with me, that I find myself talking to more and more and loving more and more. I love my friends, and I am so lucky to have such amazing ones.
This concert put everything into perspective for me, and it was exactly what I needed.
I struggle. I connect myself to people. I need socialization more than anything in the world. That is what I can rely on most lately, my friends. They are there for me.
"It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend"

thank you Yellowcard. Thank you Kailee and Pablo for sharing that day with me.
I need you all.
And all my friends.
True, yes. Cheesy, maybe. False, never.
Just dont forget how much you all mean to me.

you know how the time flies. only yesterday was the time of our lives.

I write when I am inspired. I am supposed to be writing an essay right now. But, I am not that kind of inspired. I am blog kind of inspired. There are so many things people take for granted. I feel like one of them is my amazing friends. I love them. so much, and yet... I take advantage of them.
I don't want to give off the same first impression any more. the "i am a jerk that makes jokes at other peoples expense". I want a new one.
But, I love my life. I love examples. I love God. And, I love my friends.
not to mention music. that regulates my emotions.
And by the way.
Regrets? I should dance still. bleh. that gets to me sometimes. I once dreamed of being a choreographer,. who would have thought?
I quit my job. and love that I did.
I am going to shakespeare next week, and I couldn't be more excited.
this post is me rambling. so if your bored, dang.

I should call kailee. she would understand. yep. doing it
I love you. peace out

the best thing i have ever seen.

listen to this man. he dives into my soul.

she stands against the lightning and the thunder.

Do you ever just feel like you are so happy. I was just walking down the hall today, and something felt different. I finally realized, it was because I was smiling. I was just going to my car after class, and I was smiling from ear to ear. Usually I don't smile unless I have a specific reason to, unless someone makes me laugh or I make eye contact with a friend. Right now, I just want to smile all the time. Having that, and just realizing that, felt so insane.It's because I had that oppritunity to let my feelings go, and I took it. My real feelings, not a character I was playing, not a face I was putting on to be normal, just mine. I can't say how much I needed that.
It takes a lot for me to feel important. But this week, I do. Today, I do. And you are not about to take that away from me. I love my life. I love my school. I love this. I love me. Oh my gosh. I do. That is cheesy, but I dont care. I feel so good about it, that I don't care about my imperfections. I just want to be me.

Why do I tell my story? so you can hear it. so I can feel it. so that this feeling can last forever. just listen to us. we have this. we are strong. we want you to feel. so tomorrow: listen. that is what I pray. that you can feel what I am feeling, because it is the greatest feeling in the world.

last. year. of. shakespeare.

I am so glad I am in drama four and get the opportunity to go to Shakespeare competition. Those poor kids that will never have a chance.. and. dear me. the dance company girls. like 10 or something of them can't even go because there is not enough seats. in my opinion? they should let the older girls(and guys, of course) get first dibs. Why? because it's their last year. but. that already happened. and next year they are taking 2 buses. golly gee. this bus is gonna be packed. but i am so happy. because all those dance company people who may have never got to, will get to see really well done professional theatre. I sure hope they give it a chance. It is so worth it, I cannot even begin to express. I have been saving and saving for this. I love it every year. Pericles changed my life, along with that production of Macbeth that inspired this post, and also the production of The glass menagerie that I saw this summer. Those are just a few. I am always inspired by a bunch of the competition pieces and people I meet and people I am with. I just cannot describe how happy and excited I am to be attending yet again.

growing up.

reality is kicking in. almost done with slacker school, time to find the real world.
sometimes, when colleges call, I just want to scream "I don't want to grow up!" into the receiver.
I never do.
Think about it.
It's strange.
Doesn't it just make you want to listen to this a bajillion times?
... well, I could listen to it a lot anyway.

oh, the joys of a good story.

I am so in love with Jane Austen. Jeez, it is crazy. I used to think that I could not love a book more then pride and prejudice, but dang, they are all good. I have recently watched Mansfield Park and Emma, and I love them both. So Much. It is insane,.
Who else could write fantastic twisted love stories that end happily and are still realistic! Not just that, but are actually good. There are so many other books that are just so typical. so anyways, that is my rant of the day, and here are some men from the movies to make you smile. :]

Haha...

What makes me, me?

so many people have something specific that defines them.
everybody has something different, like:
They dance, everywhere.
Their style is fantasic.
They get in a zillion car wrecks.
They are caring.
They complain.
They are always singing, humming or making music.
They are forgetful.
They strive for attention.

what defines me? oppinions? (and if all you are going to say is everything, nothing, or something unspecific, save yourself  the time. I want what you think, no matter what it is ) :]

the world.

so it seems as if the world wants me to become a part of them. to just give in and do what "everybody else is doing". to move along and just do what you want, not just what you know is good for you. I got news: I am my own self. I can figure this out. stop putting ideas in my head. It does nothing but irritate me. Do you ever feel like when people tell you a billion times not to do something, they just want you to do it, so that they can say "I told you so"? that is insane. I am going to do stupid things, sure. But it will be my own fault.stop. stopstopstopstop!!! I just want to scream at something. Trust me. I have it under control, I am pretty good at figuring it out for myself at some point. Just please.
I have one thing to ask for: let me choose. I can do it.
Trust seems like such an easily looked over thing now days, as do many other things, but I want to be taken seriously. please.

Captain America.

how could you not love this guy? This was seriously the best movie i have seen in a really long time. I love it co much. I love how historical it is. Captain America is now my favorite superhero. what? I know. I love you batman, but really... you can't beat this guy,.

such a great movie. love it.

wait, what? you dont have to be an exception...

what do you think of this song? 
oh what do I think? well, this song starts a bit of a weird blow up in my head. i am telling you. its weird. this is why.
"I'll never sing of love if it does not exist, but darlin you are the only exception"
whoa. what? think about it. her rule is she wouldn't sing about love that didn't exist.   so therefore, she can sing about it if it does exist, because that is not a part of her rule. so the love she is sing about must not exist. otherwise, it wouldn't be an exception to what she promised. so messed up. I think that the song is catchy and everything, but really? it reminds me of this. learn your rules people.
I am so confused. Why does he have to be an exception? you haven't broke your promise if you love him. unless you dont love him, then, whatever...
I still like paramore. I still like the song. It just makes me think WAY to hard.

yellow lambroghini.

 

oh my. this blows my mind. I wish i was a G like her :]

my life.

I love little things in life.
They end up being the most important.
Like, getting lost, but still ending up where you want to be.
Like waking up at 2am and then staying up till midnight.
Like finally purchasing what will become the soundtrack of your summer.
Like making last minute birthdays a success.
Like playing the Wii till you are dead.
Like eating the best breakfast ever.
Like when people tell you something so simple, and it makes everything better.
Like realizing that despite what the world may think, I don't need a boyfriend to be completely happy.
Like not being scared when you don't know where you are.
Like understanding that it is okay if you are not gorgeous.
Like listening to the killers so much that you talk in form of their lyrics.
Like not realizing how much you need someone until they are gone.
I love this. I love summer. Lets just never go back to school.

a little time.

Oh the odd concept of time. It has always troubled me. I always wonder about it. who decided that there was 60 seconds in a minute and 60 minutes in an hour? it seems a bit odd. I think it is strange that people refer to this impossible adventure as "traveling" through time. would it really be a journey, or more like rewind and fast forward. I would never have the courage to let my mind figure out how it might work, but somebody did, and they did a mighty fine job at it.
If you have not figured it out already, I have a new-found love for books. This trilogy was already a favorite of mine before I even liked reading. It started out on a boring summer day a few years ago. My mom handed me a book and said something like "what else do you have?" and so I got reading. I couldn't put it down. This amazing book was "The hourglass door" by Lisa Mangum. ever since then, I have waited for each book in the trilogy to come, and I just finished the last one.
I. love. them.
so, if you are reading this, I strongly recommend them. Lisa Mangum has the concept of time all figured out, and it is quite amazing. It also is a love story, and I swear, I can't read a book without one. fantastic.

do you remember

This song makes me think of several things. some personal, some not so much.
but mostly, it helps me remember.
Listen, and think,.

YELLOWCARD

alright, I had to blog about this because my life was just made better.
My favorite band from a few years ago is back. the have a new album. Some would say it is a bad thing that they have not changed much, but i love it, due to the fact that they are STILL the band I love. I am so happy right now it is insane. They have always been my summer band, and they are back. Just in time. love.
I met this band when I was 14 at warped tour, and I was so happy that I almost died, then, just after that, I hear they are going on hiatus. great. NOW THEY ARE BACK!! i think it makes me love them so much more. I will post some of my old favorites on my playlist, since the new ones are not on playlist.com yet. :] my music taste has changed a lot, but I will keep a place for them. PS: the itunes rating of the new cd is *****
yellowcard rules.

My life.

pounding headache.
     My friends mean the world to me. I love them. There is so much that they do not know that they actually influence me in my life. I would do anything for them. I don't care if they care or not, or if they even know that, but i hope that they do, because I know they go through a lot that I could never handle. Things happen in the world sometimes that I do not understand, but hopefully they are for the better. After all, I am not the judge, the decision maker, but I am going to do the best I can to get things to be the best they can. I listen to what is around me, and it affects me. Emotion. what does that even mean to people. It means a ton to me, and I have never been faced with a choice quite like this, but I think it will be worth it. I do not know how it will work out, but I am going to try the best I can to make it work. Sometimes it seems like my trials are so much harder different from others around me. but I can do this, and I have the strength.
     I have a different way of motivating myself then other people do. I write about it. I write about myself until there is nothing left to write about. People say they want their blog to be like a journal or a cork board or a place to post funny pictures... I want it to be my head. My whole brain just scattered all across this entire webpage. Just the thought process, where my thoughts are going how, not necessarily why. I just want it to be written somewhere. the motivation behind these thoughts, for the most part, will be kept to myself. Its open. relate.
     I believe in this time I know I can live through this life and there is a lot to think about, with all the pressures in my head, I am surprised that it has not spontaneously combusted. I want to know so much about myself. Just when you think that you have it all figured out, it all changes. I don't need what someone else needs. You can have it, because I was not so sure I would be able to handle it in the first place. I'm going to give it away, because I love you more then that, and you need it more then I do. Don't think about it too hard.
     Now take hold of it and don't let go. Work harder knowing someone gave it all for you. I know that you can do it.

words.

this is a picture from the BYU art museum.

this feels like how many books i have to read for english...

gah.

expectations.

everyone has them. we plan out how we want something to be, what we hope it will be. It is never going to go according to plan. still plan. hope for things. want them. but, expect for them to be different then you think. just because something did not happen exactly how you thought it would does not mean that it wasn't good. the best things that happen are spontaneous. whenever I do something out of the blue, it ends up better then if i would have planned it for a thousand years. Its like acting, you have to know who you are, where you are going to be and how you would react, but, the more you know the part you play, the better things turn out. You can't have as good of a reaction to something you already know is going to happen. just like when you can tell the actor is just waiting for their next line. You have to be connected enough to what is around you that the best things happen. What if you were having your wedding, and you planned it without one speck of free time. to me, it would not be me. I wouldn't know how i really felt about it if i knew exactly what was going to happen. that is why i like to write. I just start writing and what starts out as scattered thoughts becomes a reality. if you think you know how something is supposed to be, it will never be that way. Just look at it's root. Suppose: Assume that something is the case on the basis of evidence or probability but without proof or certain knowledge. those words are uncertain. if it is supposed to be a certain way, people are just assuming it will be like that.
News flash: It wont.
hope. dream. wish. cliche.
hope because you feel. dream because you love. and wish because you know.
it will be worth it. make good of what is, and don't expect more.

scatter brain.. :]

I just realize how much people really mean to me when they make mistakes. You always tell people that you are there for them no matter what, but are you really? They true test comes when you are faced with it. If someone comes to you, and they have made a mistake, are you willing to look past that and help them out. Even if they don't think that they made a mistake. I hope there are people out there who are willing to look past my mistakes, because I make plenty, so I want to be the kind of person that someone would turn to. I have such an interest in people, and i am just now realizing how much others influence me. I am happy when my friends are happy, sad when they are sad, and cranky when they are cranky. It is the way I work. If you come to me with something, I am only now telling myself that I need to feel my own pain instead of feeling yours. It gets to me. I really do feel it. I know a few things for sure. We are tested, all the time, and they are basically pass or fail. Am I passing? do you get graded at life? People are always striving to please others.
What if we all just did what we loved, to please ourselves?
not temporary happiness, but things that we KNOW would make us a better person in the long run. I know that I need to be better, and there are a lot of things that I still do not understand, but I know the things that do and do not make me happy. We can push for the good ones, we just have to try. Passion. It is more than a statement. It is a question. What are you passionate about? The first thing that comes to my head. Friends. I have passion for my friends. I love them. the ones I am closest to now and the ones from the past. I want them to have a good life, I want them to make the right choices, but deep down... I also want them to be there for me. remind me, because i want to always be your friend, and if i am not and i have been, bring mee back.
I love you,. no matter what. I mean it.

that just touched my life.

 

I was writing my brother, the missionary, an email. and listening to pandora, of course. and this song came on. I dont know what it was, but it touched me a lot. I think it is amazing. I dont know why, but it really got me.
so I wanted to know more about the artist, so i clicked on his biography, and this is what came up. read it. it is really inspiring.

2 sentences. + i love you,.

Kailee Rose:
my best friend. you not only complete my sentences, you complete my life.
I love you
Brylee Reed:
Around you, I could laugh for days. You are in my life for a reason.
I love you.
Ashley Earp:
We clicked so fast, it is unbelievable. I want to be like you.
I love you.
Maddie Bell:
You are amazing. Can we just be friends forever?
I love you.
Paris Moore:
You cannot imagine how much you mean to me. You're the apple to my pie, straw to my berry.
I love you.
Brooke Morgan:
I can talk to you about anything. You are also georgous.
I love you.
Amanda Maxwell:
I am jealous of your musical talents. You have a stregnth that cannot be mistaken.
I love you.
(E)Rika Lauts:
I want your style so bad it hurts. You have lushous hair and an amazing personality.
I love you.
I also love you too, even if didn't write your name down. :]

Song of The Moment.

So, every once in a while there is a song that just grabs at my soul. this is the one. For some reason, they don't have it on playlist, but that is okay because it is worth dedicating an entire post to. It is by none other than "Angus and Julia Stone" that I happen to be obsessed with. They have raw talent that cannot be ignored. I am semi tempted to have my playlist contain only their music. They deserve it.
oh Angus and Julia, you have changed my life.

This is: A book like this :]

Sun lights up the day time,
You light up my life.
The hand that calls you forward
is the hand that leaves me behind.

And I stand on the ocean shore ,
like an old black and white movie.
Love is here, love is lost, again tonight.

Hold me, hold me tonight. (x2)

You've got a book like this,
to keep me alive.
And if its not a rainy day,
you simply don't go outside

And you're tired of everything
all of the girls and the boys,
and if you're tired of everything
all of your precious toys.

Hold me, hold me tonight
Hold me, hold me goodnight.

Sun lights up the daytime,
you light up my life.
The hand that calls you forward
is the hand, that leaves me behind.

Hold me, hold me tonight.
Hold me, hold me tonight.

loved today.

I actually have quite a funny story.

I disected a sheep heart today, something I have had to work up to. People are surprised about this for 2 reasons.

1. I am semi- vegetarian (my diet includes poultry and fish, but no other meat)
2. I used to be very squeamish when it came to anything having to do with the body (blood, cells, systems)

I have officially accomplished something that I have been working on for such a long time. I have concurred my own bodies pathway, mindset and become completely comfortable with all these things. Disecting this sheep heart is my last step in this process.
I did it. No fear.

okay, so I still dont like the feeling of cutting it, but I will do it. It actually was quite interesting.
The best part of my story:

highlight of my story: i was walking home, when I saw some sheep (I live in quite a rural area). I turned my head to look and them and they all stopped and stared at me. Three sheep. starring at me. It was only me and my brother there so I started talking to the sheep, not connecting anything that had to do with my biology class, prior to this event.

"What are you starring at, I'm not that interesting" I said. The sheep kept starring. not moving at all. Then I connected something that made the story quite odd. I decided that I needed to apologize to the sheep. If one of them had dissected a human heart, I don't think I would have been happy. I only seemed appropriate to say I was sorry. So I did.
two of the sheep went back to their grazing, but the third just kept starring.

My brother now thinks I am a crazy, and I am not saying those sheep knew, but it was just super weird that it was the first time I had noticed the sheep, on the same day I dissected a heart of one. What? weird..

That was the highlight of my day.

Why I Listen.

Music is a large part of my life. There are so many things that I love about it. Recently, there are a few specifics that make me listen to the song over and over. I'm not a mainstream person, unless they are really good. So; here we go.
Simplicity: some times what makes a song is that it isn't trying too hard. Just say what you have to say, you don't need a metaphor every two seconds. (there are exceptions) this goes for the music itself as well. What ever happened to instruments? now everyone just does everything on the computer with all this synthetic stuff. now, if you put some of that in your music, I am not apposed. but if that's all you have, I am not interested.
Originality: Just because everyone else is doing it does not mean it is good. Stick to your style, if it's not "fashionable" it probably will be at some time, and you will have started it :]. I love hearing something new, if its lyrics, music, or even a concept that I have never heard before, I am more than likely to be interested.
Variety: short and sweet: do all your songs sound the same?
Meanings: It is icing on the cake when two people interpret the song in different ways. about what I said before, The Killers use metaphors all the time, and they are still my favorite band. Why? because they know how. they are not just trying too hard like, "the night was darker than my cup of coffee", its more like their whole song itself is a metaphor. Hence, the different meanings (nudge nudge). and, not all their songs are like that (VARIETY).

little specifics I love:
banjos and tambourines.
new bands that play folk-style music.
a good angry song of any genre (i have heard some good indie angry songs).
when I can understand what they are saying. :]

there you have it.

My love for Shakespeare.

we had a discussion in musical theatre today and it sent my thoughts running all over.
today, I saw yet another performance of Shakespeare's Macbeth (the fifth production I've seen)
I love Macbeth
I love Shakespeare.
Before you pre-judge me, I used to think I did not like it either.
To the haters: give it a chance. Why? Because I promise you: that man changed the world, and you will change your mind. I think that people just say that they hate it because everyone else says that they hate it. It's not that you hate it, it isn't even that you don't understand it. It is that you are not giving it a chance. I thought I hated it. The first Shakespeare book I read was A Midsummer Nights Dream. Not the best one to start with, due to the confusion, so I automatically put Shakespeare in my brain as confusing and boring. This is all together not true. I am ashamed for ever thinking that about this amazing man and his works. They truly have change not just language, but the world.
There is something else that stuck out to me. How much better it is when it is performed on stage. It is the missing piece that no one gives a chance. If you try to read one of Shakespeare's works and can't get into it, GO SEE A PRODUCTION OF IT. I'm telling you, this will solve the majority of your issues with it. And then I highly suggest going back to the book and reading it and connecting it with what you saw in the performance. People tell me that is a lot of work, but honestly, you will want to.

I just read macbeth about 3 months ago, and I am really considering reading it again. because I loved that production so much, and learned a ton that I had not realized before. truly amazing.

there is my shakespeare tangent. try it out guys :]

Guys and Dolls

I am so devoted to theatre I cant even tell you. but really, this has been the best show ever. The cast has really pulled on my heartstrings, and I can't explain how much they mean to me. There is a place in my heart for each of you.
Reason I am telling you:
tonight is the last night of guys and dolls. five dollars. or, if you want dinner at 5:30, 17 dollars.
It is really the best thing to devote your time to. i love theatre. okay, so I am not even going to attempt to thank everyone individually, but if you are one of them, you know, or you should :].